Going Against the Grain

Have you ever had a strong conviction about something, but completely terrified to act on it?

That was me today.

I am a major people pleaser, don't like having or making enemies... I pretty much want everybody to feel content in relation to me.
Which is a great attribute sometimes to have because it makes me keep my mouth shut when I want to say something rude or out of place.

But other times, it cripples me and I become a human doormat. The last thing I want is to compromise my core values and beliefs. But when it means having an unsure and uncomfortable conversation... Like everyone, It's not the most comfortable situation to find myself in. but I couldn't dance my way around the conversation I had to have today.

Tonight I read a bit in the word, looking for some verses that speak to me about confrontation and hard discussions. I really recommend reading the book of Proverbs, I find that anytime I'm worried or don't have peace about a situation, the wisdom in Proverbs is so helpful. Even if you AREN'T a Christian, I recommend reading them simply because they offer very common sense ideals and solutions to hard situations.


"In the end, serious reprimand is appreciated far more than bootlicking flattery." (Proverbs 28:23 MSG)

"An evasive eye is a sign of trouble ahead, but an open, face-to-face meeting results in peace". (Proverbs 10:10 MSG)

"Careful words make for a careful life; careless talk may ruin everything." (Proverbs 13:3 MSG)



Really, in the end, I think this verse sums up the hope we should have in everything working out for the best:


"Do your best, prepare for the worst— then trust God to bring victory. "(Proverbs 21:31 MSG)

Warning: Nostalgia Ahead

I've been extremely sentimental and nostalgic lately.

Looking back at these four years of high school, I'm so flabbergasted at how I can still get wrapped up in daily mundane struggles. I should be proactively looking into the future.

There's so much life to be lived ahead.
It's also crazy to think that all the life I've experienced totals to 17 years. And I can consciously remember even less than that. I'm young. I don't think I am a fully mature, independent woman yet. Young woman, yes. But no way do I have the raw life experience and hard knocks that can turn a punk into an adult.

That's what all young people have to realize and respect about the generations above us. They have years over us. Life. Thousands more mundane days...and more extraordinary days too.

I feel myself becoming less and less of a teenager everyday. It's crazy how somedays you can just feel yourself settling into the person you are going to ultimately develop into, and taking a couple correct steps down the path God has paved for you.

Thanks for reading.
Nostalgia.... Done.